A Sleepless Night…

It has been quite some time since I last wrote and contrary to popular belief I didn’t fall off the face of the earth. In my post from July 21st, Monday Musings, I wrote about feeling a change in my life and a change has happened.  I started a new job a month ago which was a much needed change and definitely from the Lord.  I had been searching for about 7 years to get out of a position that was quite toxic and now in the Lord’s timing I have a new position where my work is much appreciated and I once again am feeling confident and alive in my work.

But….there is still within me a feeling of change…

It is 2:30 AM and unable to sleep I am here at my computer writing.  I believe God is going to use this time for His glory.  That perhaps I will be able to sleep once the words get written.  I’m not sure what the words are I am supposed to be writing but I am going to write knowing the Holy Spirit will work through my hands as my heart opens to Him.  Tonight I attended a banquet that was put together to raise money for a dear friend suffering from brain cancer who doesn’t have adequate health insurance to cover his medical needs.  He has been serving the Lord for the last 42 years teaching Bible classes to children in public school through “Released Time Bible Classes”.  The children get released for an hour and go to a local church where they hear the Gospel through stories and crafts.  Hundreds of children have come to know the Lord through this ministry as have many of their parents.  He has now taught generations as children grow up, have their own families and now their children are attending these classes.  Listening to music and hearing the Word preached tonight on his behalf opened my heart wide open.  At this stage of my life (see my earlier post on The Stages of Life) I am closer to the Lord in my walk than ever before.  I again feel that He is going to do something amazing as I trust Him.  My friend has been given a prognosis of 2 years if he goes through chemotherapy and radiation; 4 months if not.  He has chosen the therapy route and to trust the Lord for His outcome.  The Lord can heal him so it isn’t impossible.  May His will be accomplished.

I have also written about my brother’s lung cancer.  (See earlier post, When Life Changes). He has been given a very good prognosis with therapy as his cancer has not metastasized at this point.  Again, the Lord’s will be done.  I lost 2 friends to cancer earlier this year.  One had stage 4 lung cancer for 4 years before the Lord took her home.   The other stage 4 brain cancer in  a much shorter time.  Both had amazing testimonies to those around them.

So what does this mean for me?  I don’t know how it all fits in but I have grown incredibly in the Lord during this time.  My love for Him is overwhelming.  I want to shout it from the house tops the Kingdom of God is near. Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved.  The compassion I have for the lost is consuming me.  Perhaps it is the state of our world today; the decay of moral society.  Perhaps it is just my age having lived long enough to experience much and realize what is really important; realizing I must do my part to fulfill Jesus’ great commission to make disciples of all nations.

The Potter’s Hand

By Darlene Zschech

Beautiful Lord, wonderful saviour
I know for sure, all of my days are held in Your hands
Crafted into Your perfect plan

You gently call me, into Your presence
Guiding me by, Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life through Your eyes

I’m captured by, Your Holy calling
Set me apart
I know You’re drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

Take me, Mold me
Use me, Fill me
I give my life to the Potter’s hands
Hold me, Guide me
Lead me, Walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter’s hand