Life…(more on the current chapter)

When I was a child even a young adult life was about me, my friends, my family and so many years ahead to spend time together.  Now that I am older and have experienced life I now know how short and fragile life is.  We all have a timeline that God has given us.  He knows it we do not.  He has numbered not only the hairs on our head but the days we have to live on this earth.  When I look at life that way, His way,  it makes me think.  What can I do to make a difference in the lives of my loved ones and those that are lost.  The longer we live we experience the part of life no one likes to talk about, death.  When you are  young that usually isn’t part of your vocabulary other than a precious pet that dies.  I have experienced family members and friends dying in what I consider too young.  But they have reached the part of their timeline that ends their earthly existence.  It is hard to comprehend but God tells us  to trust Him.

My mother and my mother-in-law, both the same age, are reaching the end of their time.  Both are ill and unable to care for themselves.  I have a younger brother with lung cancer and a younger cousin with ALS.  A friend who doesn’t know the Lord asked me today how I deal with all of this.  My unemployment and ill family members.  My answer:  It is all part of God’s plan and all in His hands.  This is life.  Yes, it is sad.

The flip side of all this is the wonderful life events that are happening.  My oldest son just got engaged to a lovely gal I am so excited to have as a daughter-in-law.  A couple of young ladies from my church are expecting first babies.  All my sons are working in the careers they went to school for.  I have two young granddaughters living life like I did at that age.  Innocent and full of fun and learning.  This is life.  It is happy.

Happy, sad and a lot of other emotions thrown in is part of life.  We spend time with people, pour our lives into theirs, laugh with them, cry with them, get angry at them, get jealous of them, forgive them, ask them to forgive us, reminisce with them.  In other words ‘do life with them’.  Then their life is cut short and a piece of us is missing.  It hurts, we cry, we get angry with God but at the end of ‘the day’ we know that this is life and we need to find a new normal without that person.

Some of you may have experienced very difficult times in your life and are struggling.  I have been there and totally understand.  So please don’t take what I am saying as a platitude.  I am just sharing where I am right now. I have lived long enough to experience a lot of life pleasant and unpleasant and because of my relationship with Jesus Christ I have learned to leave these things at His feet and move on asking Him to guide me.  It isn’t easy but it is necessary to keep me moving and able to be a light for others.  I want to be able to hear when my time comes, Well done good and faithful servant.

 

 

 

 

I Write Because…

I write because….it keeps me focused, sane and healthy.

There are 3 things in my life that keep me going.  That keep me from falling back into depression.

Number 1 is  my relationship with Jesus Christ.  Reading the Word of God each day and talking to Him. Because when my focus is on God all things fall into place.

Number 2 is running.  Running clears my head, brings me closer to God and I run in His creation.

Number 3 is writing.  This feeds my creative side and opens my heart and soul to God.

I first met Jesus Christ personally 34 years ago. It took a few years of seeds being planted by various people but then the day came in 1982 when I read John 3.  If you, reader, haven’t read that I encourage you to.  When I met Jesus is when I really began to grow as a person.  The confidence I have now many years later is not self-confidence but Christ-confidence meaning because I trust in Him for all aspects of my life I have no need to worry about the things that normally would  hinder me.  He is using me to mentor teens.  He is using me in my job to help people. He is getting the  glory and I am getting the blessing.  Reading His word and praying each day…talking to Him throughout my day keeps that relationship fresh.

When I run I am exercising my body, mind and spirit.  It keeps me healthy.  I have a running group I train with and it is fellowship with like minded people that encourage.  It also keeps me focused.  I am competitive and this feeds that.  I started my race season this spring and was able to surpass my personal record and come in first in my age group in 2 5k’s.  But the other side of this is the spiritual dimension. My focus on running runs parallel to my focus on Christ.  As I run for the prize of a medal I am also running for the prize of eternal life.

 “I do it all for the sake of the gospel, that I may share with them in its blessings.  Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize?  So run that you may obtain it.  Every athlete exercises self-control in all things.  They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable.  So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air.  But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.”
(1 Corinthians 9:23-27)

Writing has always been my passion for communication.  I have volumes of journals with my life packed into them. At one time it was easier for me to write my feelings and thoughts than it was to speak them.  Now I write because I like to.  It is a way to share my life, my heart, my soul in hopes that others will be encouraged. I have found that we are all the same in many ways.  What I experience may help someone else through the same thing and Lord willing draw others to Jesus Christ therefore fulfilling the Great Commission.  “And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, ‘All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth.  Go Therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”    (Matthew 28:18-20)

I write because… I need to.